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I wanted to say i am sorry for causing you a lot of trouble on growing me up.

I wanted to say i love you because i really really do love you. not because i wanted more allowance ;-D

I wanted to say thank you for giving me a great example of work ethic and discipline.

i wanted to say how i miss your hugs when I’m being let down or anytime life’s got out of track.

I wanted to say thank you for giving me example for what kind of men i should marry someday.

I wanted to say how i needed you now to say that everything is going to be okay in life.

And i really really wanted to thank you for taking me as i am, for never pushes me to be what i am not, for understanding all of my faults, for respecting my decisions and what i choose.

I love you Dad!!

Di blog gw yg lain gw pernah nulis tentang people that told lies about their life just to make other people impressed by them,yang gw pikir hanya ada di  my working  environment tp ternyata these kind of people are surrounds me.

Yang pertama kali gw pikirkan everytime they lie…did they really wish they’re life was like that? Cuma pengen ngomong sm manusia-manusia itu klo the real thing is so much better than the fake one (it really does..). Your life is supposed to be your achievement, so if somebody told people so many lies about their life then i guess they never achieve anything great on their real life. Dan life achievement bukan cuma untuk hal-hal yang menyenangkan atau bikin lo bangga tp juga how you tackle problems and failure too…

I was also sad about it because these people who lie are i supposed a good people,some of them are smarter than me,,well i guess it takes time to extract joy from your life.

People I know, Places I go

Make me feel tongue tied

I can see how people look down

They’re on the inside

Here’s where the story ends

People I see, weary of me

Showing my good side

I can see how people look down

I’m on the outside

Here’s where the story ends
Ooh,
Here’s where the story ends

It’s that little souvenir of a terrible year

Which makes my eyes feel sore

Oh I never should have said the books that you read

Were all I loved you for

It’s that little souvenir of a terrible year

Which makes me wonder why

And it’s the memories of the shed that make me turn red

Surprise, surprise, surprise

Crazy I know, places I go

Make me feel so tired

I can see how people look down
I’m on the outside

Oh, Here’s where the story ends

Ooh, Here’s where the story ends

It’s that little souvenir of a terrible year

Which makes my eyes feel sore

And who ever would’ve thought the books that you brought

Were all I loved you for
Oh the devil in me said go down to the shed

I know where I belong
But the only thing I ever really wanted to say

Was wrong, was wrong, was wrong

It’s that little souvenir of a colorful year

Which makes me smile inside

So I cynically, cynically say the world is that way

Surprise, surprise, surprise, surprise, surprise

Here’s where the story ends
Ooh, Here’s where the story ends

(The Sundays)

for all of my foolishness all along.

English & Travel…

Hmmm…this are the time where I would write in English…I really want to upgrade my ability in English so I try to read English book as often as I could, talk in English as more as I could and write much more English as I could. I don’t know if it is working or not? But I think it’s my time to expand things that I could do…

You may never know that maybe someday I could write a travel journal in English and sold it. Travel. That was my true obsession…my mind always wondering when I could just left this country of mine and travels the world. Those great places won’t go anywhere; in fact these great places are waiting for me to explore them. See things that I didn’t know, understand other cultures then I would complete myself.

A customer in the bookstore where i work once said to me that 1 year traveling teaches him a lot more than 4 years in college and Indonesia is his 13th country he visited. And the last thing he said to me is “God doesn’t create beautiful places just to be watched on the telly” (this guy is British, telly means television). “Travel and you figure yourself out”.

And I made him bought Michael Crichton travel journal fiction that I suppose to keep for myself. Well, good conversations is what you get when you meet great and new person everyday. That’s what I do.

The urge to have fun and explore is killin’ me…!!!
Almost 3 days on this week  i go out with friends  just to see limelight nightlife in jakarta…return of the adventure of sneak out from my parents house ;D

Coz’ I’m not in the mood for soulsearchin’  or a deep conversation that makes me splatter my tears all over the place…i know me more than anyone. I’m still a good girl wouldn’t do sumthin’ stupid…just need to breath,treat myself a fun,flirts with new guy and not taking anything too seriously.

It’s just a matter of time…then i will get sober enough to fill my life with sumthin’ more usefull…haha!!

For KC girls, so sorry kemarin2 gak pernah bisa ikutan jalan  dan nginep 2 sm lu smua..dying to meet u girls!!Luv ya!!

this few days…it’s been a total chaos,so tired of everything and i just wanna forget about a lot of thing and somehow i think i avoid almost a lot of friends just to get by it..(so sorry girls for always say no when you girls wanna meet!!). All i wanted to do this week is have fun…last week i went to a party, and i found myself almost flirting on a guy…jeez!!!for years i haven’t done that…somehow it feels good ‘coz i found my guts back…;p and the freedom feel is so amazing!!

The next day before goin’ to work i got a hangover but i know i had fun,,,so f&%k it!!!Well i didn’t s#@k at work that day..so it’s all goody-good.

Libur sabtu kemarin saking kebanyakan acara gw jadi bingung ndiri harus ngapain…
Plan 1, nemenin resthi ke sastra ktm nora sm wahyu, trus ke Blok M ktman sm Devvy
Plan 2, pergi sm anak2 jepang ktman di blok M menghabiskan hari ber hahahihi…
Plan 3, tiba2 tante dan obasan ku tercinta nelfon minta anter ke BSD serpong trus gw kabur ketemuan sm anak2 di blok M

Akhirnya yang terjadi adalah nganter obasan + ryoshin + tante gw ke Serpong, seru sih makan2 gitu dan tempatnya juga enak bgt, very out of city,,

Namanya Pecel Madiun..very cozy place, klo dari depan sih pintu masuknya kecil banget, tapi ternyata parkirannya luas dan tempat makannya modelnya ky pake gazebo-gazebo gitu…dan makanannya enak..walaupun terbatas cuma makanan jawa timur doank…
Overall siy oke…only one complain aja pelayannya kurang banyak..waktu dateng gw bingung koq restoran sepi amat gak ada pelayannya…

Nerusin crita soal weekend setelah makan tiba2 KK gw nelfon minta di jemput ke kantornya di BNI Sudirman, gila yah..mau ketemuan sm temen gw susahnya minta ampun, abis jemput nyokap ngajak ke pasaraya dan beramairamailah ke pasaraya sambil tetep ngarep bisa ketemuan sm temen2 gw…

BTnya gw gak bisa ketemuan sm temen gw karena dah tepar duluan begitu nyampe rumah…secara dari blok M sampe rumah macet bgt…ah, nyebelin!!!Next time okay Girls…kita harus ktman lagi…

Sesuai sm judul postingan ini…a very tough week…b’cuz of…

• Dapet shift siang slama 11 hari…tewas gw pulang jam 10 malem terus…
• Tugas kuliah yg numpuk karena biasanya klo masuk siang gw suka kebablasan tidur sampe kesiangan,,,gak sempet deh itu tugas gw sentuh..
• Sempet terkena penyakit flu akibat cuaca gak jelas…panas-adem-ujan!!!
• Keseringan begadang…kirim2 tugas buat bapak2 tutorku…membuat timbulnya garis hitam dibawah mata..hiiih!!!
• Jadi kasir yg bikin bawaan gw senewen takut short cash…hiiiihhh..stresss!!!
• Bolakbalik rawamangun-pondokindah..

Yah…tp sekarang waktunya gw untuk recharge tenaga nih…jalan sm temen gw…hyahaha..asiiikk!!!akhirnya bersenangsenang…i think i owe this to myself..

Something i miss from my college years at sastra is the excitement of skipping class…
enjoying every minute of not being in the class listening lecture..hehehe.

But now..i can barely skip class… class were so rare, since i’m on online tutorial class.
and For skipping office hour, thats kind of very hard to do..not because i can’t do it..but because of responsibilities thats keep hanging in my head everytime i think of not going to work…kind of shitty but i guess i’m just tryin’ to be a good employee..and keep my paycheck full…hyahaha..

Besides if i’m skipping work i wouldn’t know where to go…since my friends all very busy…Not a very worthy writing…just to fill times though

Beberapa hari yang lalu gw ambil nilai di kampus…dan kaget karena nilai jauh dari yang gw harapkan..mang siy semester kemaren gw mengakui memang agak sedikit capek tiap pulang kerja harus nyiapin otak dan tenaga buat baca dan ngerjain tugas kuliah.

Dan akhirnya kemarin waktu mau ngurus rencana studi semester depan gw harus terpaksa ngurangin matakuliah yg harus gw ambil dengan resiko lulusnya telat bgt, tp gw pikir daripada dapet nilai gak maksimal kan percuma juga…

Dan tiba2 dosen gw tanya "koq ambilnya sedikit?kenapa?sibuk ya?"

Gw cuma bisa senyamsenyum doang!!!!

Padahal dulu pas mutusin mau kuliah sambil kerja, gw semangat bgt…pokoknya bisa deh…lancar kuliah…kerjaan juga oke…ternyata sekarang gw mulai ngerasa klo semangat gw mulai ilang dan di kerjaan gw mulai ribet dengan double job yang bikin pusing!!!